Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Ruby Slippers

Ruby slippers are magic. Everyone knows that. If you click your heels three times, you can leave the world you thought you wanted but really didn't. Three clicks of those ruby slippers and you can be magically transported to the safety and security of home.

If I had ruby slippers, I would go clickety, clickety, click in hopes of getting out of my funk. Click. Click. Click. I would fast forward time to skip this winter of waiting. Click. Click. Click. Now its spring and I am full of hope. Click. Click. Click. Now I am holding my son. Click. Click. Click. Now I am home. Click. Click. Click. Now our home is complete.

But alas I do not have ruby slippers. I am destined to wander down this yellow brick road, wherever it may lead. I am the Cowardly Lion, often scared of my own shadow. I am the Tin Man, my heart is missing a piece. I am the Scarecrow, my brain has left me. I am Dorothy, looking for my home.

Ruby slippers are magic. There is a little girl with ruby slippers. She is dancing, singing and twirling. She holds out her hand for me to join her. I take it and the magic envelops me. I know that if I follow her lead down this yellow brick road, I will find everything I need.


Michelle said...

And she's back with a vengance. This is what we've been waiting for while you regathered your thoughts. Love this post.

Issas Crazy World said...

I keep saying I want a fast forward button...or even that stupid Easy button the Staples commercials has.

We will both make it to spring. I am sure of it.

Christy said...

I hope you get out of your funk soon too - Lion will come...hopefully sooner than you think! Hope you are having a fun holiday season and enjoy the festivities next week! Big hug!!!

AmazingGreis said...

Great post! Welcome back, you will be out of the funk soon I just know it. XOXO

Kari said...

That was beautiful.

I miss you!

Kate Coveny Hood said...

I can't imagine how hard the waiting must be - especially at a time of year that is all about family.

When I was pregnant with the twins, I kind of cherished those last few months of "just you and me" with Oliver. It's the very last time that there will be one single most important person in the house. The last time that you'll be able to give your oldest your undivided attention. The last time that you know you won't miss a thing since your eyes and heart will have complete and total focus.

Once your home feels complete you'll have nostalgia for this time. So try to appreciate it as much as you can. Even though it's hard when you're so filled with anticipation.